mandi announced today that if i were to pass into the great beyond, she would invest her new found wealth – my life insurance policy – in a tummy tuck & a boob lift! i promptly followed up with – well, you gotta clean up a bit it you wanna nab that rich stake president you’ve been dreaming about! a counselor we worked with a while back told her that she basically needed to dump me and find herself a rich stake president who would lavish her with A LOT OF SEX! sex that i won’t/can’t pony up for. so it’s just become this joke between us.
but see – she isn’t in need of either! she’s practically perfect in every way.
this really wired thing has been happening. i’ve been writing A LOT in a journal and all this stuff has been coming to the surface – some painful – some, not so much but just FLOODS of stuff. it’s like a wound has been lanced that needed a good oooozing and isn’t ready to stop. i can’t explain this one & i’ve mentioned it previously but this feeling of “yeah! we’re sticking this out & she is my one and only & these kids – well they are OURS & there is just simply NO GIVING UP!” i know – why is it so shocking to me? because some where along the way i forgot – i hate forgetting! i have found myself taking much needed relief sighs! peace!
HAPPY EASTER – i hope all is well. i really had something else REALLY SUPER IMPORTANT to share but now that i’m here in bed, i find myself drifting . . . so, if i can remember, i’ll write later. good night my beauty!