hey all – MNJ here – not the lovely MH. hope all is well out there in the blog-o-sphere. i’ve been out on the run and have not had time to update since my post a few weeks ago – loved all the responses by the way. the good, bad & whatever. my favorite was “for goodness sake, don’t have anymore kids”. obviously you know our kids because they scare me too! HA! not really and quite honestly i just have to say be careful of the stones you throw. did we make a bad choice to get married? did we complicate life because we went the next step and had kids? did the mormon church make us do all this? maybe . . . but still, my point was this, right or wrong here we are. a cat and a fish trying to figure out a life together. now everyone knows that cats prefer dry land while a fish is meant to swim but how do you think “catfish” came into being? duh!
i got back from my latest trip saturday. i had been gone a eight days. on the trip i had A LOT of hours on planes plus some free hours in between. i took a journal. now i’ve always been guarded in my journal writing – you know, the whole posterity thing. what should they or should they not know. but anyway, i started this journal. and MH promised not to ever even sort of pretend to think about picking it up and perusing its pages. with her promise in hand i have been starting to UNLOAD through ink on page! holy cow i’m a mess – but then you already knew that. it has been freeing in ways i did not think possible. i have written everything and anything that comes to mind. it has already unraveled some of the chaos that is my mind. what i’ve come to figure out is this – plain and simple . . . we will stay together. period!
in case you hadn’t noticed, the zillion dollar question has been stay or not to stay? i’ve come to realize that keeping this fish and my precious cat together is OUR only option. not asking you to agree. i know i asked for support & MUCH was given (thanks by the way). but not support in the way of agreement. more, looking for what has or is working for any one out there in a cat/fish marriage. i know we are trying to navigate uncharted waters. we are beyond the conventional. stop pointing out the obvious. we are acutely aware – trust me. i’ll be honest, i’ve been closer to swimming away than i have ever been before. it’s been a rough spring. we had a “deep digging” session last night. much was laid out on the table. we are giving up stuff to stay together. we more that likely will struggle for the rest of our lives to make this work, BUT – and let me repeat, BUT – we are in this together. there is a bigger photo here than just us. this is the path i’m choosing babe. i’m a bit apprehensive only because of my track record, working on that though.
anyway – hush puppies are a not so great side dish served with fried catfish here in the south. i’m done eating nasty side dishes babe. i want more yellow cake with home made caramel icing (see fella’s – who’d make me fantastic eats for my birthday if i left for another fish? the food alone is worth sticking around). babe, let’s move out of the litter box into something a little more suited to us both. i’m thinking – permanent tropical va-cay! you get the beach, i get the sea – you can’t have one without the other, toss in a few pretty drinks with umbrella’s and sha-zam! sounds like the key to a fabulous life to me – you in?