I am absolutely and completely, FULLY aware of the ridiculousness of our situation.
I KNOW that Husband should let me free to be loved “completely” by someone else.
I KNOW that I should get out of this doomed marriage and let Husband be the man he truly wants to be.
I KNOW that we have been hoodwinked by a pseudo-religion that is based solely on monetary gain and total control over it’s blind followers.
I KNOW that there is SO MUCH more out there to be had and that we both are living half-lives by continuing on in this ill-fated mockery of a marriage.
I fully support gay rights including gay marriage, adoption, and all else.
I absolutely know that the outrageous assumptions about homosexuality through the ages need to be de-bunked and proven false. Two people of the same gender can and do love one another with the same purity and purpose as those of opposite gender. Sometimes more.
I adore my gay friends. I don’t differentiate between the gay and the straight. Just between the good friends and the crappy ones. Incidentally, some of my very best friends happen to be gay.
Is it so wrong of us to want to make our marriage work? Does our determination and our desire to seek out the good and build upon it rather than dwell in the yuck threaten you in some way that causes you to demean and degrade our choices?
Are we so offensive and upsetting?
Is it far too much to ask that there be some support and perhaps, assistance in aiding us through the difficult times? (because, yes, there are many.)
I love my husband. I love him so much that I am willing, and even eager to work with the painful and upsetting aspects of our marriage- BECAUSE of the man that he is, how I feel when we are together, (the great majority of the time,) and the great and positive life that we have built.
And I daresay that he feels the same.
Is it too much to ask for a little support?
Because I know e.x.a.c.t.l.y. what we are up against.